MOJO # 65: When did I get so serious

Sometimes all we need is a gentle kick to the peach.

I asked myself this question today: When did you get so serious?

You see, I've been taking this content game way too seriously.

I've been worrying about doing it right. The right topics, that are relevant to my work and helpful to the listener. The right attitude - don't cuss, don't laugh too much, don't have too much fun. It's a business. The right standard. Is it ever good enough?

This led me to publish less. Waaay less. I went from 4+ videos a week in 2022, to 41 videos in the entire year of 2023.

That's an average of 3.4 videos per month, compared to 17.2.

Now, don't get me wrong, I don't regret it. In 2023, I made some content pieces that I'm genuinely proud of. I let myself explore topics I liked. I gave myself time and space to play and discover my voice in the process. I am grateful I gave myself the freedom to reconnect with what brought me creative joy.

But, this raised the bar for what I considered good enough to publish. And because honestly "good enough" is subjective, the only way to hit commercial hits while being creatively unclenched is to be a prolific creator.

I often created behind the scenes, but I didn't always publish. I thought I was still exercising the creative muscle.

Yes, but also, that got me a little bit comfortable. Since I'm not so strict about my publishing schedule anymore, and I don't have to publish every piece I create, I don't need to worry about polishing my ideas or communication as much. This created an even higher barrier of fear for me; or so-called perfectionism.

So today, after recording 2 different videos over the weekend and not liking them enough to publish them, I asked myself, when did you get so serious? 

This inspired me to do what I did years ago when I knew I needed the kick. For the next 30 days, I'm going to be publishing a video every day by 9 am my time (Central).

Hasta la vista chill mornings by the fire. Time for a new adventure. Or something.